My desire is to be pure again and not dirtied by the world. But it's my duty to be as ugly and as filthy as I am, so the audience can experience what I have. I'm not alone in feeling the way I feel. I believe that a lot of people can relate to my s***--whether white, black, it doesn't matter. Everybody has been through some s***, whether it's drastic or not so drastic. Everybody gets to the point of 'I don't give a f***' :)